Welcome to my blog. This is really an outlet for me. I have a 5 year old boy and identical twin boys that will soon be 3. As anyone with children will tell you, some days can be quite challenging. My family enjoys hearing the craziness that exists in my home so I thought it would be easy to create a blog in which they could read the stories of my boys.
Here is the start of my adventure with twins.
Twins boys are something I never thought that I would have in my life. Nonetheless, I was utterly and totally blessed with the arrival of my identical boys, Ben and Hayes, February 5, 2007.
It started out with me and my husband having a two year old red-headed boy named Sam. He hung the moon and stars in our eyes. We adored him and could not wait for more children. In my perfect world, I would have two kids, maybe three, but definitely a boy and a girl. It ended up that my perfect world was one that I had not imagined at all but was so much more wonderful!
June 18, 2006, Father’s Day, I tell my husband we are pregnant! I start spotting on July 7 and go straight to the doctor. My mom watched Sam, Ryan went to work and I went to the doctor thinking it was a miscarriage. I was so happy to see that little heartbeat fluttering so fast. Imagine my surprise when the sonogram technician said “and there is the other heartbeat.” WHAT????? TWO BABIES??? NO WAY I say. Well, the shock was enough to render me speechless with the occasional, there are really two? I mean, really? Yes, she says and she thinks they may be identical. Well, that is pretty cool I thought.
I go sit in the doctor’s office and wait nearly an hour with no cell phone and no way to call anyone. I start getting annoyed and I am alternating between laughing and crying. Probably more crying than laughing, ok a lot more crying. What will this mean? How will we afford it? How will we have enough room? Can I have two more babies? At the same time? Then Dr. Johnston walked in and I burst into tears. She was so sweet and comforting and she had twin boys and I fell in love with her. I felt a little better after I left her office.
I get in my car and I immediately phone my husband. I ask what he is doing and he says walking to his car for lunch. I said “so you are not sitting down?” “No, why is it twins?” he said. “Well, YES.” His voice raised to a pitch I had never heard “WHAT? We’ll have to get a bigger car”. I found it funny that that was his first thought, I too had thought about that. Anyway, from that point on I laughed hysterically and thought of the craziness that would eventually come.
Oh how I thought it was for sure identical girls. I thought that they would so adorable with blond hair, blue eyes and just darling. I would have my beautiful big boy Sam and then my identical girls. It would be perfect and I was so excited!
August, I start bleeding again. I go to the doctor and have a sonogram. Everything turned out to be fine, I was 12 weeks along. The sonogram tech still thought they were identical and she tried hard to see if we could tell what the sex would be. This is it, I thought! We are scanning and scanning and I think I know what I am looking for but I probably don’t. Then, I see her face and I can immediately tell that she sees at least one boy. That is ok I think to myself, there is another baby and another chance for a girl. I look at the screen and think I may see a penis. Uh-oh. I said, "I think I saw a penis." She says she thinks she does too. "Which one?" she asks me. I point to one on the screen and she said she thinks she saw it on the other one. While I am so thrilled and relieved that the boys are healthy and fine and growing well, I am devastated that there will be no girl in my future. That day I had a day of mourning, because it was in fact like a type of mourning for the dream of a life I thought I would have with a girl. I cried all day long and did not take phone calls. My in-laws were sweet and sent me flowers, my friends tried to cheer me but I just needed to cry and let it go.
Little did I know that those boys would complete me and my life and that three boys would make my world absolutely perfect.
I have several stories to post but will do so later.
